Tell the world I'm not coming home :(. I needed it too. This whole new school/experience feeling has worn off. I'm tired and the whole 19 credits thing has finally caught up. I've certainly had better ideas in my day. And I'm feeling like "I'm Lost in Philadelphia".
This pretty much sums up why I've been feeling so crappy lately:
Can’t escape you,
Pictures, thoughts, memories,
Cant get far enough away,
People, moments, time.
Can’t just let go of anything,
-Me (FYI)
I just wish I could sleep it off but you end up there too. I want to move on, I've prayed for it just about every night to take these stupid feelings away. I'm so sick of this feeling. It's sooooooooo annoying. I miss going home every weekend. I need an escape cuz I can't delete everything with you in it, I wouldn't have much left not to mention Angie would murder me for ripping down half of her pictures. What's funny is I deleted the first post I wrote today so that you wouldn't read it but whatever... what-er-er. You already know I miss you and if you don't well now you know. "I just hope that you miss me a little when I'm gone." Thanks Drake/pandora for playing that right now, great timing. There aren't enough interesting girls to help distrac me from my thoughts. All my 90s music makes me think of you now, just because you said something. Sigh. What else can I say before I end this? Dreams? I punched you one night and then you went on vacation with us the next. I fell asleep in math since I can't sleep at night and you were there. My long the other day started with one of those dreams, kind of a day ruiner right off the bat so when you texted me you were like the last person I really wanted to talk to. But thanks for trying to cheer me up. And yeah I directed this right at you because it's only you and Jasmine that read this anyways. I'll write someting for you later Jasmine.
Now for something happy :D. Samantha made a moose at build-a-bear today and put Air Force service blues on it. Its name is Ryan. Best. Sisters. Ever.